Trying to understand my Baby girl

Poem on mother

I have so much to learn, she has so much to teach,

Her tiny grasp, & the world still out of reach…

She teaches silently, with eyes that shine like enstatite,

She notices everything acutely, she happens to have a keen sight

How her smile transforms into questions,

How she abhors what dissuades her, with apparent objection,

She’s not easy but intricate

Sometimes I read her like a passage and

Sometimes she is nothing less than an adage…

I wasn’t always strong, but she inspires me to be

She gives me that inconceivable strength

That only superhuman feel…

She trusts me more than I trust myself,

Makes me feel like I have finally excelled …

I don’t know if I was anything before she came,

She has added colours in the monochrome frame…

We will understand each other more,

As life unfolds itself,

Till then we’ll observe each other and try to comprehend as much as we can!

Ⓒ Prakriti Kundaliya

 

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Ⓒ Prakriti Kundaliya

How I motivate myself – Part 1

 

Till sometime back I used to be the most pessimistic person. My behaviour made me cynical to the extent that I was viewing things from a very different perspective. I was blaming myself for anything bad that happened to me. I wasn’t ready to trust people. Life is unfair, I told myself every second of the day and it was always I who paid exorbitantly for other people’s mistake. Nothing has changed, I am still the same person but I feel different. I am still confused with the way life is progressing but I don’t blame anyone for my problems. Life will never be same, as I am growing older, I need to become wiser and I have to earn enough experience before I start trying to understand anything cosmic. I was never supposed to understand how life works. It’s mystical, we need to let it unfold on its own. I have come to believe that the reason why someone else’s life is better than mine is because they are a different person. Each one of us is a different make, we came out differently, we were moulded differently, there’s a reason why we have different DNA and unique fingerprints. I was never supposed to be Steve jobs, I am supposed to be myself and I need to celebrate my being every day.

There were things that I learnt and there are things that I am learning every day. I started by opening my mind to possibilities but I didn’t let them restrict me. I learnt that everything that I do can be done differently using various approaches. I started calculating the repercussions each possibility would have. Yes, I confused myself in the process but I learnt how to weigh the good and the bad of every situation.

I don’t conclude things in the very beginning. I give them time to progress, to mature. Till sometime back I would judge a situation as it appeared; now I wait, wait for things to mature because I have learnt that most of our actions are the artefacts of the circumstances we are in. I have come to understand that I will never know any person or a situation ever, seasons change and we need to as well, to survive, to make through the day and to exist. I now believe, if my heart doesn’t agree to someone’s behaviour, my mind will have to because that person is how he is because of his present situation. That shouldn’t affect me, it is already affecting them and I can’t burden them with an opinion.

I have learnt bad things will happen. Sooner or later we will all come across a life altering event. The severity of which will be so intense that you’d lose yourself to problems knocking down like dominoes, one after the other. These moments will be nerve wrecking, every second will test your patience. Life will come to a standstill and your mind will race marathons. I have been there, I have sat in the dark, dejected, disappointed, and depressed only to realise I was letting the worst take over my best. I realised I could either sit there forever to see the world move like a bullet train or be a part of the train and deal with my problems one by one. My problems aren’t over, I am still dealing with them, one at a time but I don’t allow them to destroy me anymore. Now, I face my problems as they come, it became easier when I realised that the pain of facing them was exactly as long and as much as the one that I faced during getting injected. They shy away the moment you face them or maybe the newly found courage amps up your morale.

So yes, as they say, giving up seems like the easier thing to do, don’t! you may make excuses and get away but the problem will remain, deep down you’d always know the truth and that will never let you live peacefully. Have patience, it’s called virtue for a reason. Take time, and don’t care, you may feel like the last in the race but for as long as you are a part of the race its OK. I am not scared of failing anymore, failures have taught me the value of the prize. The real award is peace of mind and now I focus on accomplishing that.

These are a few of my favourite brands…

I am a major shopaholic. The first half of the month I am busy buying; the second half of the month leaves me wondering whether I actually needed any of that.

Still nothing has ever deterred my shopping spirit, it’s my Christmas. I have stuff in my wardrobe with tags intact, since forever, the only excuse that I give myself for not wearing it is… It’s special and I am waiting for the right time.

I have a Just Cavalli Halter worn twice, in an absolute mint condition, anybody interested?? I am in a giveaway mood. If it fits you it’s yours. I got that as a gift but because it doesn’t fit me too well I feel the rightful owner should claim the piece.

It’s been my favourite since 2010 and because I don’t do justice to the brand I feel it’s better to finally say goodbye to this old friend.

Now coming back to my shopping. I’d like to share with you the brands that I buy and the websites that I refer to while shopping online. I am an impatient shopper with absolutely no patience to brave the long queues or to go through innumerable racks to find just the piece that I have in mind. I don’t like the hassle of carrying shopping bags. I am just too lazy for all of that, so to shop more conveniently I took help of online shopping. It was difficult at first but I got the hang of it after a few attempts. Now after so many years, I am perfect to become an online fashion consultant; which I partly do as a hobby currently only in office and for some friends.

The online shopping scenario has improved drastically over the years, thank goodness for the promotions, even toddlers know about websites. Still, there are so many brands available that you’d find quantity reigning over quality. There are only a few Indian websites that I’d prefer for buying online fashion. A Nike or an Adidas can be bought from almost every site but till sometime back it was impossible to get fashion labels like Topshop or Missguided on an India website.

Clearly if you’re a fashion fanatic only 1 website does Justice to your wardrobe and that’s JABONG. Yes, my views could be biased since I am one of their most loyal customer. I have never really faced a problem in either their service or the quality. So every week the Javas guy rings a bell at my door to deliver something or the other.

Of course like any others online seller they too have a gamut of brands under them but the top 10 international brand one should look out for are:

  1. Topshop – http://www.topshop.com/
  2. Dorothy Perkins – http://www.dorothyperkins.com
  3. Missguided – www.missguided.co.uk
  4. Buggati – http://www.bugatti-fashion.com/
  5. Miss Selfridge – http://www.missselfridge.com/
  6. River island – http://www.riverisland.com/
  7. Next – http://www.next.co.uk/
  8. Forever New – http://www.forevernew.co.in/
  9. Mexx & – http://www.mexx.com/
  10. New Look – http://www.newlook.com/

I have minimum two pieces of each of them in my wardrobe and I can swear by the old gods and the new gods that they deserve to be bought. The quality of the clothes is unmatched; such fine clothes on forever discount. Go on, see for yourself, you can thank me later!!

Introduction

6/8/2016
Dear Reader,
I am grateful that you took out time to read this blog.
The first post will briefly tell you as to why I am here, and what I plan to achieve from this blog. Despite being an ephemeral writer, I don’t really know how a blog works. I tried it once before but I lost interest. Now that’s not the first time I have lost interest in the things that I claim to love. (No pun intended). Yes, I have a short attention span and I get bored, just too soon, and quickly.
So, because I thought I was wasting time on the unnecessary, I planned to devote time on the essential. Yes, I love to write and I love to shop, also I work in a 9-6 kind of environment where numbers and not words, work. I am partly a marketer and partly an analyst. So, you see I need to belch out my pent up emotions somewhere; but I am sure you won’t get bored. I am everything but boring.
I intend to take you through my impressive shopping experiences, no I won’t do a haul in here; I am barely getting used to blogging, remember? I will post the links of the things that I fancy, a lot of pictures maybe because I’ve heard I have a good taste in clothes, fine wine, and food and of course I write! Also, I would be a stylist, had my parents not forced me to take up something steadier. So get ready to ride on an ‘all things girls love’ kind of a journey which I hope will keep you busy.
Please leave reviews, if you feel it’s worth it! I just embarked on a journey to accomplish the unaccomplished in my life and I am grateful, now you are a part of it.
Yours Truly,
SA Zoya

6/8/2016

Dear Reader,

I am grateful that you took out time to read this blog.

The first post will briefly tell you as to why I am here, and what I plan to achieve from this blog. Despite being an ephemeral writer, I don’t really know how a blog works. I tried it once before but I lost interest. Now that’s not the first time I have lost interest in the things that I claim to love. (No pun intended). Yes, I have a short attention span and I get bored, just too soon, and quickly.

So, because I thought I was wasting time on the unnecessary, I planned to devote time on the essential. Yes, I love to write and I love to shop, also I work in a 9-6 kind of environment where numbers and not words, work. I am partly a marketer and partly an analyst. So, you see I need to belch out my pent up emotions somewhere; but I am sure you won’t get bored. I am everything but boring.

I intend to take you through my impressive shopping experiences, no I won’t do a haul in here; I am barely getting used to blogging, remember? I will post the links of the things that I fancy, a lot of pictures maybe because I’ve heard I have a good taste in clothes, fine wine, and food and of course I write! Also, I would be a stylist, had my parents not forced me to take up something steadier. So get ready to ride on an ‘all things girls love’ kind of a journey which I hope will keep you busy.

Please leave reviews, if you feel it’s worth it! I just embarked on a journey to accomplish the unaccomplished in my life and I am grateful, now you are a part of it.

Yours Truly,

SA Zoya