Que Sera, Sera

What do you want her to be when she grows up? What would you like her to pursue? I am left with so many unaccomplished dreams that I’d want her to pursue everything that I like, yet every time I look into her eyes I realise I am facing a different person. She is a part of me but she is nothing like me. She is harbouring unrealised dreams and there are many things that fascinate her, she is only 1. How can I dream anything for her? I can’t, rather I shouldn’t.
I want my baby to become anything that her heart desires. I want her to pursue happiness. She can be a princess today and she can be a sailor tomorrow. She can be a scientist today and a swimmer tomorrow, but for now she can be the child who doesn’t have to know limits. She can be the girl who doesn’t know the difference between her and the boy who lives across the street. She will know the differences as she grows old anyway but the only difference I will teach her for now is to differentiate between the good and the bad. I will teach her that people may try to take advantage of her and not because she is a girl but because there are bad people in this world.
She is allowed to skin her knee and she is also allowed to break someone else’s bones if needed. Yes, she is mine but even I won’t owe her. I want her to know that she will be allowed to make mistakes and learn from them. She is lucky for even her dad will support her, spoil her. I want her to know that we will give her the best in our reach but in return we would expect her to value it, for there are many unprivileged.
I have dreams for her, so many of them but eventually she will realise her dreams when she grows old and I will have to accept. Today she has started walking, tomorrow I wouldn’t want her to run away from me. I hope I can be the mother, I think I should be.

Trying to understand my Baby girl

Poem on mother

I have so much to learn, she has so much to teach,

Her tiny grasp, & the world still out of reach…

She teaches silently, with eyes that shine like enstatite,

She notices everything acutely, she happens to have a keen sight

How her smile transforms into questions,

How she abhors what dissuades her, with apparent objection,

She’s not easy but intricate

Sometimes I read her like a passage and

Sometimes she is nothing less than an adage…

I wasn’t always strong, but she inspires me to be

She gives me that inconceivable strength

That only superhuman feel…

She trusts me more than I trust myself,

Makes me feel like I have finally excelled …

I don’t know if I was anything before she came,

She has added colours in the monochrome frame…

We will understand each other more,

As life unfolds itself,

Till then we’ll observe each other and try to comprehend as much as we can!

Ⓒ Prakriti Kundaliya

 

Stuck in Time

A manuscript, and a glass of wine,

I had lost the track of time…

Surreal moments, broken tides,

I knew there was no haven to hide

My tears dry,

The pain still sharp…

I was stuck in a time warp..

My make-believe world,

Finally collapsed,

My unclothed soul, stood,

Unadorned, unabashed….

The dwellings changed and the people too,

Some consciously remained mute…

My life came to a halt, and the

Surroundings were covered by the murky fog,

Limbs paralysed, eyes wide

The senses numb,

Nowhere to run.

This is a lost fight,

It won’t get any better,

I have lost the place,

Now nothing really matters…

I have realized now,

I can’t change the future,

My world challenged,

More pain will follow…

Now, I am collecting figments,

That fragmented in the crash….

I am saving as many,

To remember the moments that, once were planned.

Ⓒ Prakriti Kundaliya

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Ⓒ Prakriti Kundaliya

How I motivate myself – Part 1

 

Till sometime back I used to be the most pessimistic person. My behaviour made me cynical to the extent that I was viewing things from a very different perspective. I was blaming myself for anything bad that happened to me. I wasn’t ready to trust people. Life is unfair, I told myself every second of the day and it was always I who paid exorbitantly for other people’s mistake. Nothing has changed, I am still the same person but I feel different. I am still confused with the way life is progressing but I don’t blame anyone for my problems. Life will never be same, as I am growing older, I need to become wiser and I have to earn enough experience before I start trying to understand anything cosmic. I was never supposed to understand how life works. It’s mystical, we need to let it unfold on its own. I have come to believe that the reason why someone else’s life is better than mine is because they are a different person. Each one of us is a different make, we came out differently, we were moulded differently, there’s a reason why we have different DNA and unique fingerprints. I was never supposed to be Steve jobs, I am supposed to be myself and I need to celebrate my being every day.

There were things that I learnt and there are things that I am learning every day. I started by opening my mind to possibilities but I didn’t let them restrict me. I learnt that everything that I do can be done differently using various approaches. I started calculating the repercussions each possibility would have. Yes, I confused myself in the process but I learnt how to weigh the good and the bad of every situation.

I don’t conclude things in the very beginning. I give them time to progress, to mature. Till sometime back I would judge a situation as it appeared; now I wait, wait for things to mature because I have learnt that most of our actions are the artefacts of the circumstances we are in. I have come to understand that I will never know any person or a situation ever, seasons change and we need to as well, to survive, to make through the day and to exist. I now believe, if my heart doesn’t agree to someone’s behaviour, my mind will have to because that person is how he is because of his present situation. That shouldn’t affect me, it is already affecting them and I can’t burden them with an opinion.

I have learnt bad things will happen. Sooner or later we will all come across a life altering event. The severity of which will be so intense that you’d lose yourself to problems knocking down like dominoes, one after the other. These moments will be nerve wrecking, every second will test your patience. Life will come to a standstill and your mind will race marathons. I have been there, I have sat in the dark, dejected, disappointed, and depressed only to realise I was letting the worst take over my best. I realised I could either sit there forever to see the world move like a bullet train or be a part of the train and deal with my problems one by one. My problems aren’t over, I am still dealing with them, one at a time but I don’t allow them to destroy me anymore. Now, I face my problems as they come, it became easier when I realised that the pain of facing them was exactly as long and as much as the one that I faced during getting injected. They shy away the moment you face them or maybe the newly found courage amps up your morale.

So yes, as they say, giving up seems like the easier thing to do, don’t! you may make excuses and get away but the problem will remain, deep down you’d always know the truth and that will never let you live peacefully. Have patience, it’s called virtue for a reason. Take time, and don’t care, you may feel like the last in the race but for as long as you are a part of the race its OK. I am not scared of failing anymore, failures have taught me the value of the prize. The real award is peace of mind and now I focus on accomplishing that.

Being Woman

 

Our job is easy as women.

Homemaker or a working professional… we don’t have to either thrive or strive for much,

We are women, we get it easy.

We can multitask, break our bones from early mornings till late hours without getting tired,

Why? That’s, because we asked for it!

Our family should always be our priority, yet, professionally we should do better than most men,

So that we get to stay at work comfortably.

We must carry babies for nine months and work without complain,

At home or in office, we should be able to sustain, the hardships and the pain.

We are women, we get it easy.

We do more than men yet on ‘Those’ days you can’t afford to get lazy.

Why? That’s because we were born to act crazy,

On certain days of the month.

The men will do better without us, or so they think, 

After all, we aren’t the crown, but just one of the jewels on it.

I am still struggling to understand ourselves,

A little more brain and a little just a face!

Yet, time and again I get confused,

When our appearance is being constantly judged and IQ ignored.

Our job will always remain easy, because we as women, hereditary asked for it,

We’d always be physically rusted and emotionally weak,

To those sitting on their egoistic peak.

We are women but that’s how we’ll survive, we are women & that’ll keep us alive.

We as women should know our worth,

No amount of labels that the world bestows upon us should ever shake our trust,

Yet, we are women and that’s maybe a curse, it’ll perhaps take another lifetime before we are valued more than dust.

Until then remember,

We may not be as mighty, as all their might, yet, as a woman let’s take pleasure in being our own knight.

Ⓒ Prakriti Kundaliya

Sneak in with me..

Shoes, Ah! Soul therapy and Sole’s remedy.

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There’s always room for a new pair, and this season, out of many styles that I bought; there’s one, that stood out.  The casual sneakers & the Slip ons. I loved spending every penny on them. The best part about them is, that they go well with just everything, from dresses to shorts and what’s more? I wear them to work and they look even better with formals.

Yes! So Shoes, is what this post is all about. The shoes that I have, may not be available online anymore but I will share the links of some of the shoes that are still on my wish list so by the end of the post if you guys don’t decide to buy them, I most certainly will.

When it comes to sneakers or sports shoes, like many I trust only a few brands, those that I blindly trust are, Nike, Adidas, New Balance. Yet, this year I am going to try something different. The new additions to my wardrobe will be Superdry, Asics, Call it Spring, Mango, Aldo and Steve Madden. I will be sharing the links of all the shoes that I wish to buy or already owe!

I have categorised the shoes under the following categories:

The Neons

The Flower Power &

The Super Sporty 

Neon

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Links :

http://www.jabong.com/Adidas-Neo-Park-St-So-Sea-Orange-Sporty-Sneakers-1948631.html?pos=29

http://www.jabong.com/Adidas-Fresh-Bounce-Orange-Running-Shoes-1928940.html?pos=18

http://www.jabong.com/Adidas-Falcon-Elite-5-Orange-Running-Shoes-1948615.html?pos=19

http://www.myntra.com/casual-shoes/nike/nike-women-blue–green-roshe-one-flyknit-nsw-casual-shoes/1267722/buy?src=search&uq=true&q=sneakers&p=4

http://www.jabong.com/Nike-Zoom-Winflo-2-Aqua-Blue-Running-Shoes-2063570.html?pos=54

http://www.myntra.com/sports-shoes/asics/asics-women-fluorescent-orange-quantum-360-sports-shoes/927222/buy?src=search&uq=false&q=sports-footwear-women-menu&p=11

Flower Power:

Links:

http://www.jabong.com/adidas-originals-Zx-Flux-Multicoloured-Sporty-Sneakers-1865151.html?pos=16

http://www.jabong.com/adidas-originals-Superstar-Pink-Sporty-Sneakers-1947249.html?pos=6

http://www.myntra.com/casual-shoes/adidas-originals/adidas-originals-women-multicoloured-printed-zx-flux-smooth-casual-shoes/935579/buy?src=search&uq=true&q=adidas-originals&p=2

http://www.jabong.com/Adidas-Cc-Sonic-Green-Running-Shoes-1948622.html?pos=7

http://www.myntra.com/casual-shoes/adidas-originals/adidas-originals-women-black-printed-zx-flux-casual-shoes/979939/buy?src=search&uq=true&q=sneakers&p=50

 

The Super Sporty

Links:

http://www.majorbrands.in/brand/cl_2-pr_1559728-i_2221521/wboragb2b.html

http://www.majorbrands.in/brand/cl_2-c_4335-pr_1559851-b_90/mrushyrd.html

http://www.majorbrands.in/brand/cl_2-c_4336-pr_1559899-b_90/cw620cbb.html

http://www.majorbrands.in/brand/cl_2-c_4336-pr_1559888-b_90/wl574cpib.html

http://www.jabong.com/Nike-Free-Rn-Black-Running-Shoes-2058689.html?pos=1

http://www.jabong.com/Adidas-Neo-Cloudfoam-Pure-Purple-Sporty-Sneakers-1948704.html?pos=48

http://www.jabong.com/Adidas-Neo-Lite-Racer-Pink-Sporty-Sneakers-1948692.html?pos=58

http://www.jabong.com/Nike-Free-Tr-6-Purple-Training-Shoes-2058707.html?pos=16

http://www.jabong.com/Nike-Flex-Adapt-Tr-Purple-Training-Shoes-2058659.html?pos=31

http://www.jabong.com/new-balance-Prism-Pink-Running-Shoes-1988978.html?pos=50

http://www.myntra.com/sports-shoes/adidas/adidas-stella-mccartney-women-yellow–coral-red-ultra-boost-running-shoes/1194384/buy?src=search&uq=false&q=sports-footwear-women-menu&p=4

http://www.myntra.com/sports-shoes/adidas-originals/adidas-originals-women-red-nmd-running-shoes/1252497/buy?src=search&uq=false&q=sports-footwear-women-menu&p=17

 

So this is all for now …soon i’ll be posting the metallic sneakers’s collection 🙂 Let me know if it was worth your time!